Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Alternative Break Weekend--Trip 1 of 3

Alternative Break Weekend- Trip 1:

This past weekend I was lucky enough to be able to go and volunteer in Denver with 12 other people from CSU for 3 days. I was accepted into this program with the ability to go and participate in three different trips with the same group of people who are all also interested in volunteering and taking trips. This trip was he first of three and we left Fort Collins Friday November 21st and then left Denver to head back either to Fort Collins or home Monday November 24th.

Friday November 21st:

We had a potluck at one of the site leaders’ apartment. We got to talk about our excitement and what we were most nervous about with the trip. We then talked about who would be driving and who was leaving straight from Denver to go home and who was coming back, to make sure we had enough cars to get the people back to Fort Collins. We packed all of the cars with all of the food and people and headed out. We had to stop at one persons’ house so they could drop off the food that was extra so her roommates could eat it and it wouldn’t go to waste. At that point, the rest of us waited for her to come and we would continue the train of cars down to Denver, but some miscommunication happen and two of the cars left without the three others of us, so as we were waiting for this person, it was found that she was actually on the road, so we started on the road and headed to Denver.
We had no idea where we were going. No one knew where we were staying; all we had was an address and the fact that it was a house that is rented out for free to people who are staying in Denver volunteering for free. Two Missionaries own it and they have a housekeeper and when they are gone, it is rented out and their story is told and we learn about what they do.
We arrived to Denver after 9pm and started to unload our stuff, when the housekeeper named Phil began to show us around. We found out that it had 12 bedrooms and then 2 kitchens and a large basement. It was a really nice place- very old, but a nice place. We all had to decide where we were staying, when we decided we would all stay in the basement together. So, we were in this very large house with almost enough bedrooms for everyone to have his or her own, and we decided to sleep together in the basement. We then started listening to what Phil had to say about the house and the people that lived their and his job and it was interesting, but he talks a lot. We didn’t even get to bed until 2 am, which was really ridiculous!
Phil works with the illegal Hispanics that come into the country. He works to fight for their rights especially when they are not being treated fairly or being paid. He takes the employers to court and does protests and stuff in front of these businesses if they are known not to pay their workers and threaten the lives of the Spanish.

Saturday November 22nd:

We woke up at 6:15am and headed over to El Centro where Phil does a lot of stuff with the illegal immigrants. We brought them donuts and also talked to a few of them. It was very awkward because almost all of us couldn’t speak Spanish and these men couldn’t speak English so we felt weird and I personally didn’t want to be there anymore because I didn’t feel comfortable and I felt that if you are going to have a conversation with someone, you should at least know the language, but I personally could not do anything except understand what they were saying. I could not respond to anything they said, other then basic stuff.
We then finally left there around 8:30 and 4 people went to Earth Links and volunteered and the rest of us went over to Samaritan House. I went over to the Samaritan House and helped to move boxes around in the warehouse. They had boxes all over the place and had boxes of Olympic apparel that needed to be put away and into boxes to be given out later. This apparel was from Atlanta as they were a a contestant for the 2013 Olympics, but they couldn’t sell it all. Some of it was also from Tour de France and clothes left over from the Olympics being in China. We also moved large boxes of diapers from one set of shelves to another so they could have room for Christmas toys and holiday stuff. I never realized how heavy diapers were until I was trying to more over 100 of these boxes! It was ridiculous! Some members of our group painted the stairwell railings. We talked to a guy named Robert who was the one that gave us the stuff to do, and he was so honest about the organization. He didn’t hold back to what could be done to improve the place and he was all by himself running this place for maintenance. The Catholic Charities (who runs Samaritan) decided to lay people off and his partner was laid off and now he must do all the maintenance by himself along with other stuff. It takes over $1000 an hour to run the place properly, which is absolutely ridiculous. We learned about how this place takes in the homeless and helps them get back on their feet if they want that ability. They also have an Overflow place where the homeless that don’t get into the House which houses over 100 men and 48 women and 21 families, can go at night. They raffle off beds at night and if you don’t get a bed, you get a ticket and can come in at 8pm to sleep on a mattress for the night.
We left there and headed back to our house to stay the night and while we were there we decided that the people at Earth Links might like to actually work at the Samaritan House serving food at night, were a few of us were supposed to go back and help. We called them up and they said they were extremely bored and wanted to know if 3 of us could come and take their places. I went with two other people to trade off. When we got their we learned that all they had been doing was sitting at a table and selling items all day, at this point they had been there from 9am to 3pm. We were only there for one hour so that was a very good thing, but that hour went by extremely fast.
Earth Links is a place where the homeless and people of low-income can work in a garden maintaining it and dry and press the flowers during the summer. They get paid to do this, and then in the winter they use those flowers that they dried and pressed, to make bookmarks and candles and candle holders. These are then sold online, and at random churches. The money goes to pay for their salary and then to buy new flowers to plant and maintain. It is a revolving circle and they are a non-profit organization.
After leaving Earth Links, we headed back to the house where we learned that the people were not home and so we walked around the block and waited outside of the house until they got back. They had gone on a walk and went to blockbusters to see if they could find some movies that Phil was talking about.
We started to make dinner for the night, which was spaghetti and salad. We all originally were doing that, but then decided it was just too much and half of us went up to the second kitchen and started to make the cookies that we would be handing out later in the weekend. Our first batch of cookies was a complete mess and it was horrible. We forgot the sugar, salt, water, vanilla, and baking soda. It was a sad time ☹ But we had a blast during the whole experience and we were laughing and talking so much and we just had a great time even with our problems. We made 3 sets of doubled batched cookies and that took forever!
At dinner we realized that Phil had invited some people over. They were his friends and they lived down the street and knew all about the people who lived in the house and wanted to meet us. They were some nice people.
After they left, we had a group meeting about what we were doing on Sunday as Phil wanted us to do stuff, but we already had something planned. Phil wanted us to go to Spanish Mass and do a protest with him and something else, but we had a plan of and “emergent experience” already planned out. I really wanted to do that because going to Mass was not my thing, and this guy was already annoying me. He kept changing out plans and wanted us to do everything with the illegal immigrants and not really the homeless, which was our original plan. It was interesting. Some people really wanted to do his stuff and some wanted the experience. We decided that we would do the experience and if later you wanted to join up with Phil you could, because mass didn’t start until 9:15 and the experience started at 6am. We headed to bed around midnight and had to be up at 5:30am.

Sunday November 23rd:

We were woken up at 5:30am and had to be out of the house no later then 6am. We were sent in groups of two to be “homeless” for a day. We were given an identity and had to accomplish about 3 different goals for the day, along with surviving the day. My partner and I were given the identity of being 16 year old homeless teens. We started out walking with another group but then decided to branch off and go on our own once we got away from where we were staying during this trip. We stopped at a bus station first and got a map and realized it was extremely warm in there. We then walked over to the Samaritan House to get breakfast, but we couldn’t find the breakfast line, so we decided to leave. We headed down to 16th Street Mall. It was absolutely ridiculous. It was dark and cold and no one was outside because it was like 7:30 in the morning on a Sunday. We walked around and we realized the only people who actually said hello were the homeless or the people cleaning the streets. I thought it was crazy to see the homeless so friendly to others in the morning, where the people who have no worries about where they sleep at night and where they stay warm, are snobby and stupid. It really brought into prospective of whether or not I do that on a daily basis. We decided it was getting really chilly and needed to get warm, so we headed back to that bus station where everything was warm. We sat in the bus station for about 45 minutes and talked and noticed that there were 2 other people who were homeless sleeping-one at a table and the other on the floor in the corner. It was so surreal to see that it really does happen just as in the movies. As we sat there, we just talked and watched a little television, at which point we an announcement came up on the overhead thing and they stated they were doing a security check and would be coming around to check tickets. We looked at each other and asked what we should do and we decided to stay and see what they said. They came around and asked for our tickets, at which point we told them we didn’t have any and they asked us to leave. We asked why since we were just trying to get warm and they said we just needed to leave and told us to not come back. They watched us as we left the station and headed back into the cold. At this point was really where I realized that the homeless are really targeted and that is when I really felt neglected and put down and horrible. We were just kicked out of a place where we were not causing any trouble, and just wanted to get warm and had no where to go. It was a very crazy experience. We then headed to the library that was like 8 blocks away and saw that it was closed which was really bad because we needed to find something to do all day, it was really crazy because we walked so far just to find it was closed. We then headed back to 16th Street Mall, where it was more daylight and people were walking around. We decided to go into Starbucks where we would ask for a phone book and see if we could get an address for a place called Urban Peak where homeless teens go, but they didn’t have a phonebook, but we did take some free samples because we were starving. We then decided that we would go to other Starbucks because we thought we could get some more samples but alas, no one else had any! It was lame!
We then headed to Barnes and Noble to get a phonebook, and while we were there looking at the phonebook, the guy kept rushing us and really wanted us out of there because we didn’t fit in the traditional stereotype of having money and being properly “dressed.” After leaving there and being rushed, again I felt pressured and unwanted. It was a really hard thing to come across and really think about. I was having a hard time understanding what to do with myself and who would actually accept us for who we were, not what we looked like. While walking down 16th Street Mall, again, the only people that would look at us were the homeless, and everyone else seemed to do a double take or walk far around us. The homeless only nicely greeted us. Which was another eye opening experience. We sat on a bench and recollected our experience with each other and listened to two others talk about their life. They seemed to “look” homeless, but one of them kept talking about his apartment and refrigerator, so who knows, but that also fits into the stereotype of looking like something, which apparently was what we looked like. We decided to head back to Samaritan House for lunch around noon and when we go there we observed what was going on and how the lines looked. We felt guilty about taking their food… someone who truly needed it would be denied it because we took it, so we just headed back to our home where we could get food.
It was so different to think that we were only out there as long as we wanted to be and could go back home whenever we choose but the actual homeless could not. They had to live like that day after day. They struggled daily. It was an amazing weekend and so many of my thoughts have changed about homelessness and I really believe so much happened that changed everyone’s view. Without this experience I really do believe that I would not be the person I am today writing this, I believe I would still be an arrogant person about homelessness. I really think that people need to open their eyes about what the world is going through and see that the homeless are not out there to cause trouble, they just want to survive.
We also participated in a protest against School of America’s and that was the most ridiculous thing I have ever participated in, in my life. We thought we would be protesting with a group of people that had been affected by School of Americas and others, but instead it was a bunch of white arrogant people pretending like they knew what they were fighting for and they really did not. I did not feel wanted there or comfortable protesting with these people, so 5 of us decided that we would head back to where we were staying because we did not want to be part of this and it was horrible. They were not happy with us when they arrived to our house at the end of the protest. I really didn’t care but we did participate in the last part of the thing where they read off names of the people who had been killed by these graduates of the School of Americas… that was interesting, could have been better but alas, it was not. I believe that if they had just gone through the experience we did with the emergent experience they would have approached this protest very differently, or if we hadn’t done the experience, I believe we would have approached it differently and we wouldn’t have felt so uncomfortable supporting this, but with out experience it just left us uneasy.

Monday November 24th:

We got up around 8am and made lunches for the homeless out of the leftover food we had stored over the week. We had extra bagels, PB&J, and some fruit. We then packed the cars and headed down to a park and handed it all out. It was also a nice experience and we came across some people that really thought we were a religious group and kept telling us to be on our own. We could only save ourselves if we were individuals and that following and listening and conforming to what the people say to do is bad. Yeah, we already know that….which would be why we aren’t part of religious groups, but if I were them, I believe I would also think we were religious because that is generally who comes out to help the homeless. I encountered my first smell of pot and that was an experience….it really stinks, just for you all to know! Haha! I thought I was going to throw up with the smell as he smoked it and we sat there listening to him talk about Philosophy and stuff.
We then headed home around noon. I was extremely glad to be home, but I learned so much and really bonded with the people in my group that it was bittersweet!!


Links:

Earthlinks: http://www.earthlinks-colorado.org/

School of Americas: http://www.soaw.org/type.php?type=8

Monday, November 17, 2008

I am "It" now, Misty has tagged me 

My 8 Favorite TV Shows: I am with Misty on this--- I don't watch much TV
  • Grey's Anatomy
  • Private Practice
  • Jon and Kate Plus 8
  • Little People Big World
  • Uh.....
  • Hmm.......
  • I don't watch more then 2 hours of TV a week..... hmmm
  • Uh..... sorry

8 Favorite Restaurants: This one is easy.... I LOVE TO EAT!! LOL!

  • Chick Fil-A
  • Cici's Pizza
  • Fargo's
  • Old Chicago's
  • The Pita Pit
  • Texas Roadhouse
  • uh..... 
  • Braiden Dorm Food? I dont' eat out :( 

8 Things that happened yesterday

  • Worked on History Essay's
  • Worked on Sociology Essay
  • Studied for biology with Nathan and Eddie
  • Ate Lunch
  • Ate Dinner
  • Studied for Sociology
  • Went to the library to find books for my lab report
  • Worked on my lab report

8 Things I look forward too:

  • Thanksgiving
  • Volunteering!!
  • Seeing my nieces and nephews
  • Maybe seeing Yellow over thanksgiving, but defiantly over Winter Break!!!!!!
  • Possibly seeing Zachary in December!
  • Hanging out with the family over Winter Break (Misty, Amie, Aunt Susan.... you know, those people!!)
  • Spending time with old friends
  • Next Semester Classes!!!!!!!

8 Things I love about Autumn:

  • LEAVES!!!!!!!!!
  • The colors
  • The cool air....just perfect for Colorado
  • family time
  • The unpredictable weather
  • Photography opportunities
  • Relaxing.... everything seems to slow down at this time of year
  • Food..... :)


8 Things on my wish list: 

  • For Mason to continue to touch other peoples lives like he has our family
  • For Misty's family to get the things they need to continue down this long journey 
  • To find a career that i really enjoy and would love to be at forever
  • To keep the amazing family and friends I have now who have helped me through everything
  • To learn more about the people around me to better help myself understand them and help them more
  • For everyone to find what makes THEM happy in life, whether it involve college or not. 
  • To find that special someone sooner or later :)
  • To learn to accept myself for who I am and not change for others in order to get acceptance. 

You are "IT" (whom ever is reading this) (Misty I believe you are the only one... haha!)

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Halloween

Wow, this week has been another crazy week. Ups and downs, but it was well worth it. 
It really wasnt' too bad. 

Zachary called to tell me he had a girlfriend and I was like "hmm, okay?" i really don't care? haha, he thinks i care but i really don't. I am the one that turned him down when he brought up the idea, not the other way around, so he should be the one that is upset. He confuses me, but whatever, he is a good guy and i am glad he found someone to love him and make him happy. I guess he just wants me to care more then I do, but its hard when I don't really understand the reasoning and the things he has chosen to hide from her. His life, not mine.... just waiting for that call to say they broke up. 

Anyway. I got my purity ring, and have chosen to wear it. I am still a little questionable about it, but it is something i want to do for me right now, and if i change my mind later after in a relationship then we will see what happens, but for now, i would rather get into a relationship with a guy who knows and can visually see that i am waiting until marriage and then change my mind after a while then get into one, with that being the only thing on his mind. 

Halloween..... Angela and I were going to have a friend over for the night, but her mom decided that she wanted to go to the movies with her instead, and Eddie and Nathan ended up backing out, so it was just the two of us. We watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre and i seriously laughed through that movie instead of being scared or screaming/jumping. I apparently am not a good scary movie person as this has been the 2nd  one i have laughed through. We also watched The Nightmare Before Christmas and The Bucket List. 
On the spare of the moment i decided that I would send a "Happy Halloween" text to Oliver as i do on every holiday, not expecting anything back, but he did! He sent a text saying he was in town and wanted to get together! It was amazing! I was so excited! So we got together at about midnight :) He is a great guy, and if i can "become the person you (me) are in text" we will have a second chance. I don'tunderstand that i am different from text to person, but apparently i am and will work on that. I want this second chance and am grateful that i could actually end up with one! He is a great guy, and I am thankful for that surprise last night! It was a great Halloween. 

Today I went to Walmart and got candy for 50% off which is great! It makes up for not going trick or treating or having the left overs from handing it out. 

I hope to hear from you. I hope your Halloween went great! 
I love you,
Jennifer

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Pictures

Horsetooth and Cornmaze/Ice Cream photos!! 


Part of the 283048 different paths we hiked

The only little bit of water coming from the "waterfall!" 


Waterfall.... haha, great isn't it?

If you look closely you can see a butterfly on the left part of the flower

Beautiful Flowers

Amazing view!

Eddie being a Super hero!!

Beautiful part of the reservoir 

Boys just being boys (Nathan and Eddie)

Hehe, Hiding behind corn :) (Nathan)


At Ben and Jerry's 





Past 2 weeks

These past two weeks.... WOW! Totally has had its ups and downs, a little too ridiculous if you ask me, but i guess that is just life. 

The weekend of October 17-18 I went out with Nathan and Eddie and Angela. It was a BLAST. Friday night i was originally planning on going up to Boulder but decided against that and decided to stay and hangout. Nathan and I decided we were going to go see a movie called Max Paine. We getting Angela and Eddie to go with us, but we had 2 hours before the movie to do something, so we went to walmart because everyone else needed to go, and i was just going to go on saturday anyway. So we get to walmart and it is about 8pm. We walk around and then end up in the movie section at which point we decided to buy a movie. I have never seen a scary movie and thats what they wanted to see so we decided on Halloween. That was NOT scary nor even creepy! We left Walmart about 9:45 or so, and got back to the dorm and we decided to watch it in my room. So, it was Eddie, Nathan and I on my bed and angela was on hers. We watch this movie and not even halfway through i begin to fall asleep. It wasn't creepy or scary.... just stupid and boring. Eddie however was hilarious! He jumped so much during the movie, even breaking his necklace at one point. Nathan actually even jumped because it was "creepy" at one point, i just laughed. We then played some games and Eddie and Nathan left about 2am. It was a good night. 

Saturday was a very early morning as Eddie and I left for a hike. We had this hike planned for a while and so we didn't want to cancel as who knew when the weather would turn horrible.  We went up to Horsetooth Reservoir and hiked for a good 3.5 hours! It was amazing! The weather was great and the scenery was beautiful. I took over 150 photos and enjoyed the whole time we were there. After we left we were headed to get lunch when Nathan called and wanted us to join him for dinner at 5:15 with his sister.... so that was only 2 hours away, so we just got a hamburger from McDonalds and headed to the mall so we could get Eddie a new chain for the necklace that broke on Friday. We saw Nathan at the mall with his sister so that was interesting. We went back to the dorm just as Nathan and his sister arrived so that worked out perfectly. I went and got a sweatshirt and we jumped in Nathan's sisters car, got dinner and went for ice cream. We then went to a scary cornmaze and it was interesting. haha, i thought it would be scary, but it really wasn't..... Eddie of course was so freaking scared it was so funny! He jumped at everything we heard and saw, and so did Heather (nathan's sister). Nathan tried to scary me a few times, but only got me to actually jump once. It was interesting to say the least. We had so much fun in the 3 cornmazes and we experienced some great things and we had a great time! I really enjoyed being out of the dorm and hanging with some fun people! We are going to try and do something fun like that with the three of us (Heather doesn't live in CO) at least once a month. 

This past week had is downs and i got so stressed it was too hard to overcome! It was ridiculous, i know i ruined some test grades that i could have done well on because of everything going on. 
For some reason i have been really thinking of Oliver A LOT and it is really killing me! I miss that kid so much and so i have been talking to him a lot and we have been talking about relationships and that lovely stuff, but i don't know what i want to do. I don't know if i can do it again. I really don't know, but it has been bringing me down to a low i never thought i would encounter. We will see what happens. 
Nathan is also being really weird. Things between us have been really hard because some girl has told him that she likes him but he doesn't like her like that and so she has been talking to me about it, and its hard because i could really careless and i dont' now how to make it easier on her. She is a great girl, but if he doesn't like her then there isn't anything i can do and she wants me to fix it. Nathan has been talking to me about her and what he should do to get her off of his back so that has been weird. I don't know.... its a complicated situation and things just need to be uncomplicated. I also figured out that this past week has been about me helping others and not doing anything for myself. 

This past weekend i didn't do much other then go out with my mum and stepdad. We just went to Old Town and walked around and then went shopping for a few things. Sunday i didnt' do anything except my biology project with a very crabby Nathan and then i just went to bed early. 

Monday was a crappy day, was pissed most of the day and didn't want to do anything.  I then was approached with the idea of a purity ring. I am unsure how i really feel about that? What honestly is a purity ring? I know the basics, but i want to understand the whole thing! I don't know much of anything about it so i am confused other then that you wear is on your ring finger until you get married and only at that time is it removed and replaced with your wedding ring. I dont' know if i want to accept the challenge to the fullest? I know i am abstaining and that lovely stuff, but i dont' know if i want a ring that says i am a virgin for the whole world to see! So confusing...... :(

That has pretty much been my life since i last posted a few things! 
I hope to hear from you soon! 
I will post more when i get a chance, i need to get to class. 
I love you. 

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Photos from the past 7 weeks

These are just some photos from the past 7 weeks.....i  have a lot more on my facebook. 

Final Score..... 28 for CSU and 25 for the Cougars 

CSU Band at the Football game

CSU band

CSU football game

Football game

Military being sworn in on the field

Tisa.... our mentor being pied in the face.... money went to the local food pantry

Tisa afterwards 

People on bikes in the CSU Homecoming Parade

People in the Homecoming parade

Parade
Parade... they said Horse's were the first Hybrid

CSU band..... Eddie and Nathan are in this line


Fireworks for Homecoming


Fireworks for Homecoming

First signs of snow.... Estes Park! (Oct. 11, 2008)


Elk in Estes Park



Memories


I have been tagged by Misty: 

Here's what you have to do. You need to open your sixth photo folder, and open the sixth photo, and you need to post it. And you need to hope that you remember what it is!!!!




This is a photo from Missouri. Not too exciting...but they are butterflies! haha!

Hm....I don't have 6 people to tag....
1. Katrina
2. Shelby